My darling Steve two years without you how have I done this?. I've done it with tears every day and pushing myself somehow to get through the day without you the loneliness is unbearable at times and all I can do is cry for you. Everyday I wish you would walk through the door and hear you say my name life goes on somehow I don't know how. All I want is your arms around me to make me safe warm and loved like I always felt with you. We will all be together missing you after two hard horrible years nothing is right without you here and we have to go through all these hard times it just is not fair you want to be here with us enjoying our family we built together and I need you here to see our beautiful grandchildren it breaks my heart. I always thought we would grow old together and have many more happy times I try so hard to do things without you but it's not the same I want to feel your hand in mine and cuddle you in bed I put my hand on your side of the bed and wish you were there but it's all cold I'll never get used to it. Two years have gone by you are my special husband my soulmate and my rock I was always safe warm and loved and could face anything with you because I knew how special I was to you. I'm so lucky to be loved by you just wish I could see and feel you again I think I'm going to go mad if I don't hold you again but I must go on somehow please let me know how. I will love you forever and I will be with you and you will be with me forever. Sending all my love and kisses to you the love of my life. Your Sal xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx