My darling Steve I'm facing another new year without you how do I do this I don't know? Life is very strange now doing things without you I long to have you with me and find myself in tears all the time. Why did this have to happen? I never dreamt I would have to face life without you at this stage of our lives I feel as though my other half is missing all the time and don't know what to do with myself half the time just want you here making me laugh but nothing's going to put this right ever so what do I do? I imagine you here but that's all I can do. When I wake up every morning I feel so unhappy and want you there with me wish you would come and put your arms around me it scares me to think ill never see or talk to you again something that was so normal all those years. Missing you so much this New Years Eve wish I could say Happy New Year to you like I have all those years and kiss you but I hope you are with me tonight let me know somehow. Sending all my love and kisses forever to you my special husband I am so lucky to be loved by you. I love you with all my heart. Your Sal xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx