My darling Steve it's our 42nd Wedding Anniversary who would have thought you wouldn't be here with me on this day I will never get used to you not being here I thought we would grow old together but how wrong was I? I cry so much for you and feel so alone in the house we could be having a lovely life so much going on. Two weddings to look forward to Lee and Kelly and Holly and Matt I will miss you so much on those days Zak and Beth in their house you would love their cats! Your grandchildren Ellie James Keeva and Lenny breaks my heart you can't be here with them they would love spending time with you. Also the big move from The Holly Trees to Dupreys what do you think of that? Hope you're proud of me I try but often life gets too much for me and all I long for is a cuddle from you and for you to say it will be alright. I find these special days so hard putting on a brave face while breaking inside. I still can't believe what happened to us what a cruel world. Please let me know you're with me on our anniversary. Wish you could come back to me. Hope you're there with dad wish him happy birthday from me. I am always with you and you are always with me my special husband on our anniversary. Love you forever wish I could go shopping with you! Sending all my love and kisses to you Steve. Your Sal forever 💔💔💔💔💔💔 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx