My darling Steve I can't believe it's four years without you here with us all. How I've carried on without you I'll never know it's been a hard journey I never thought I would have to do yet. There's been so many changes and life is so different now in many ways. I just want our lives back when I was happy. Please let me know you're with us some days I don't know what to do and feel I'm in a black hole I'll never get out of. Losing you was the worst thing that has happened to me I thought we would be together until we were old but life was cruel and tore us apart when we could have had so many more happy years together.I feel so cheated by life why take you and put you through agony? Wish you were here to hold me I miss that so much it's so lonely. Wish you'd come through the door I often imagine that I miss you sitting with me watching telly. Your mum has gone now strange it happened and by rights you should have been here but something else that's happened without you. I'll never understand this world. I will love you forever and it's so strange to think you died on this day. Sending you kisses my special husband. I am always with you. All my love to you on this sad day. Come and give me a hug💔💜 Your Sal forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx