My darling Steve hope you're with me. I am missing you so much it gets too much this time of year I can't feel happy because I want you here doing all the things we did at Christmas I want to go shopping with you and get the presents. I got upset tonight because I was looking at the Christmas things from the loft the stockings we would hang on the bed which I still do but it's not the same because I know Christmas Eve you won't be here when we would put little presents in each other's stockings and get all the presents out after getting in from the pub. Now it's me on my own it's not right doing these things but I have to. I'm so lonely without you this pains never going to go. Just want you here to feel happy like I always did with you at Christmas time. Missing you forever my special husband reading the labels you wrote to me on the Christmas presents bags had me crying my eyes out just like the two Christmases before since you have not been here wish you were here to still do it. Sending all my love and kisses come and give me a cuddle. Your Sal forever❤️💜❤️💜xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx