My darling Steve I think I am going mad all I think about is you and how I wish I could see you again. I need you here I miss you so much life's cold without you and I feel so lonely. I sit here and think why us? Every morning when I wake up I feel so sad and unhappy and could cry all day nothing makes sense anymore. Before all this we were so happy just getting on with life and now everything's been taken away from us. How cruel to take you away from us. My head pounds all the time with missing you and I feel like screaming how can everyone still get on with life when all the time I feel so sad. Your my rock best friend and soulmate and you didn't want to leave us so why us we have a lovely family and grandchildren it's heartbreaking I can't bear it. Nothing's going to be right ever again. I miss you so much holding me and kissing me I feel so on my own and you're not here I need you I just worry about everything now when you were here we could sort things but then that horrible illness came we could do nothing about and took you away from us all. All I do now is imagine you here but know you're missing everything. We should have had many more years together I will never accept it that's what hurts so much. Please let me know you're with me. I will always be with you and you will be with me. All my love and kisses. Your Sal forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx